We all have them. Some dreams are as simple as getting a full night's sleep or getting an extra twenty minutes in at the gym. Others are more complicated - going back to school, making partner at your firm, taking that dream cruise through Alaska.
But we all have them. Sometimes, our dreams are what keep us going through the very darkest of times.
So what are your dreams, The Band? What will you do one day?
I should probably be like this all year, and not just in January when everybody is making New Year's resolutions. One thing I've learned in recovery is that every day is a chance to start over. Every day is a new start on life.
I think Misty would want me to live like I believed that. I think Misty would want me to think about the shit I'm gonna do one day and then do it today.
I don't have much of a list of wild and wacky shit I'm gonna do. I've already lived a wild and wacky life. I've been through more Cadillacs and designer clothes than any human should have a right to destroy. I've been photographed in the winner's circle at Retama. I've owned homes and I've rented beautiful downtown loft apartments. I've lived in the country and I've exalted in city life.
I've stood in the wings on stage left and watched Kenny Wayne Shepherd come to life when he began playing his guitar. I've seen legendary bands perform live; I've tasted Dom Perignon; I've been fossil hunting in a Hummer. I've ridden roller-coasters; I've got a college degree; I've been a calendar girl. I've done all that exciting, life-experience shit. It was fun; but it wasn't what life is about.
Now, it's time to do the truly exhilarating shit that makes the heart feel alive; it's time to do the shit that makes the soul sing with joy. It's time to do the beautiful stuff. It's time to really live life like there is no tomorrow. It's time to live life with connections to other human beings.
So, #onedayimgonna forget to be afraid. Every decision I have ever made in my life has been based in fear. Fear of failure, fear of success, fear of getting hurt, fear of looking silly. I've been afraid of far too much in my life, and none of the shit I was afraid of has killed me--not even a tornado. #onedayimgonna forget to be afraid.
#onedayimgonna travel the country and meet my Band family. My Band family has become the support group that carries me through my darkest moments. I'm one of those people who has always gone through shit alone, maybe because I felt it showed weakness to ask for help.
Now that I'm #withtheband, I still mostly go through shit alone, but with one major difference: I know that I have you all in my heart. You are all just a phone call or email away--and I'm not afraid to pick up the phone and cry for help on teh twittah. I've done it before and I will do it again if the need arises. #onedayimgonna travel the country and meet you all face to face. I may have to do it in multiple small trips, but #onedayimgonna meet you all.
#onedayimgonna be the change I wish to see in the world. My Band family members are each, in their own way, the change I wish to see in the world. I dare not list the specific ways that each of you inspires me, because I would undoubtedly leave someone out and each of you is unbelievably important to me.
Each of you brightens my day. Each of you exhibit something to which I aspire. Each of you is beautiful. Each of you is a ray of bright and beautiful hope in a world that seems exceedingly mad. #onedayimgonna be more like all of you and be the change I wish to see in the world.
#onedayimgonna really figure out my dog is right. Mollie is hella smart, yo. Don't believe me? Just ask her what time it is. She'll cock her head, perk up her ears, and give you that look that says "you're so silly". And then she'll answer your question: "it's now, silly. It's right now."
There's a lot of philosophical ramblings about time, ramblings that cook the noodle; I could go into them but I won't. I won't cook your noodle, I'll just give you the philosophical truth that all those ramblings arrived at.
Life is for the living, and living happens right now; s/he who lives in the moment is living in eternity.
#onedayimgonna live in the moment and forget to worry about tomorrow or fret over yesterday.
#onedayimgonna live in a timeless world, because the only time is right now.
#onedayimgonna live life like my creator intended me to live it. #onedayimgonna forget to be afraid,
#onedayimgonna hug each of the Brains,
#onedayimgonna be the change I wish to see in the world, and #onedayimgonna live like there is no tomorrow.
And that one day? Is right now. Life is too short; this moment is too precious; each of you is too beautiful; I don't want to miss any of it.
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