I feel like every time I post, it's more of the same.

I'm depressed. 

I'm cutting.

I'm drinking.

That's all happening right now. I'm taking a break from therapy. Well, it's been five months since I went to therapy and I'm not back yet so who knows?

I quit school. I couldn't handle it anymore. It's a little easier when I'm working, the variety of life is better than sitting in a classroom with unmedicated Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder.

I have three jobs. It's enough to pay my bills (plus some) but I can't stop because if I stop I'll sink. I run and run and run. I volunteer and go to church and work 50+ hours a week. I'm surviving like this. I can't imagine slowing down. I can't imagine doing one thing all the time. 

I'm on the board of directors for a non-profit organization. They don't know what's going on and neither do any of my bosses. My parents think the storm has passed. My friends think I'm doing fairly well, but I'm not so sure. How does someone even judge that? Sometimes I have trouble getting groceries or doing my laundry. Normal people don't have those problems.

I do.

What does that make me?

Sad.

by missingperson; Published on January 26, 2013
Filed under: How To Help A Friend Who Self-Injures,  How To Help Someone Who Is Depressed,  Loving Someone With Depression,  What To Expect When Going To A Therapist,  Alcoholism,  ADHD,  Self-Injury,  Depression,  Major Depressive Disorder,  Therapy
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