February is all about The Happy.
We here at Band Back Together know that winter and the holidays can feel overwhelming, The Depression starts rearing its ugly head.
So, The Band, what makes you happy?
What brings a smile to your face? Is it a memory? The thought of the future? The brilliance of a sunset? We want to know!
I just wanted to share a quick story about how amazingly perfect the tiny unexpected things in life can be. Those little events that line up so perfectly to cause something amazing.
For me, it happened in December.
My dad had, with the help of a woman I never want to talk to again, planned a Big Band dance in memory of my mum, and my dad was going to sing. I was so excited. I found the perfect dress, also serving as a bit of a fuck you to those who hate me, since it was tight and silver and looked amazing, and I was counting the minutes until the dance.
My daughter also had a brand new red dress and I was so joyful to bring her to her first dance. About thirty minutes of dancing into it I heard someone say my name as I walked by after I checked on my girl. There, I realised that it was a guy I had been friends with all my childhood but lost touch with in high school.
That night I knew after talking and dancing with him for several hours straight that I was in trouble. I was falling for him. He took both my daughter and me to breakfast and I watched him as I could tell he was falling in love with her. I saw the pride in his eyes when people came over to ask how old she was and tell him she was beautiful. After being left by her biological father, here was a man that I remember as a second grader watching her sleep as if she was his own.
He saved me from a classic New Year's Eve of hiding from people in my room with a bottle of alcohol that I would finish that night. He took me to a really fun family party. We talked constantly. It felt like we never drifted apart.
After that, we ended up at his parents' house, watching movies before falling asleep on the couch. When I went home that morning I hadn't just gained a best friend, I gained a boyfriend. Quickly, I realised just how amazing little, unexpected things could be. I ran into an old friend and found what I always wanted to find.
He is the man who respects me, is truthful, kind, makes me laugh like I haven't in years, adores my daughter as if she was his own, and honours my wishes. I trust him with my whole world. He wasn't supposed to be at that dance. I wasn't going to wear that dress that made me hard to miss. He wasn't looking for a new girl after he was used and broken by his ex. I never wanted to trust and love anyone again.
But somehow, in a crowded dance hall, we found each other.
Just a bizarre set of events leading to me being happier then I have been in so many years. Something so unexpected and beautiful that I stop every day and remember just how lucky I am.
Maybe it does happen like that, going about your day then you suddenly find yourself where you always wanted to be, just when you give up wanting it and swear never again. Happiness and love can really find you. And I don't think I would ever change a thing.3 Comments